HOPE...

can be feeling sometimes dead
yet somehow painfully alive

I...

can be wishing it would just die
yet I feel myself hanging onto it
with rope burned hands

So tired at times I could lay here as dead
but the lifeblood refuses to stop pulsing through my veins

Right here--between dead & alive...
With both desires--to die & live...

Hope is alive, though I try to kill it

When will my heart believe...

That to live is Christ, & to die is gain